Owning My Midlife Crisis

 Midlife Crisis noun 
1. a period of psychological stress occurring in middle age, thought to be triggered by a physical, occupational, or domestic event, as menopause, diminution of physical prowess, job loss, or departure of children from the home.

I'm in a midlife crisis and I'm reacting accordingly. I take no shame in that pronouncement.  I embrace it.

A crisis triggers a physical response, fight or flight. I chose both.

I THINK I'm past the Menopause, THINK is the key word here. I had my hysterectomy at 41 and you can ask my family and friends, I have definitely been in menopause for the last few years, but I feel like I'm past it now. I'm much calmer now, not having hot flashes every two seconds, and I just feel less crazy.

I am turning 50 on August 10th and I decided about a year ago that 50 would not be a downward turn rather it would be a crisis that made me say "Oh shit! I better get going!"

So, I've already put some huge things in motion.

First, in August my sister and I will be walking to first part of the Camino De Santiago in France and Spain. Yep, you read correctly, I am doing a walk. If you don't know what the Camino is, here's a link Camino de Santiago

Back in 2011, after I watched the move The Way, I decided I would like to walk it "one day".  Last year when I went to my sister's Steam Punk 50th birthday party (best party EVER btw) I decided I wanted to do something big for my 50th also.

Dean told me about a coworker of his, who told him that his wife and her sister take an international trip every year on her birthday. That made me think "What if Donna and I walked to Camino for my 50th?" I asked her, she said yes but she didn't think I was serious until I called her with incredibly cheap round trip flights to Spain.

I've been training since last summer.

We will be walking for about 6-10 hours a day for 12 days starting in France and walking through Spain and I can’t wait! (The whole Camino takes a month to walk but we are only going for two weeks so we will walk the first half)

Yes, so unlike me I know, going on a walk, roughing it in Spain that is just so "Midlife Crisis".

 But that's not all.

A year ago I started to explore running for state office.

Back up, really when I was seven I told my dad I wanted to be a politician, he replied, "no you don't" but since then I have had a love/hate relationship with politics. You all know this, not like I'm telling you anything new.

I met a few dead ends in my search for training on how to run for office but a couple of months ago I finally connected with someone who could point me in the right direction.

In April I will start interning at the state capital one day a week for this friend. Yesterday I attended my first Emerge Louisiana information session. In January I am hoping to start an official training class with Emerge so I can be ready to run in 2019.

I know, I know,”What the hell? You are SO not a politician", I hear you but the one plus about Trump being president is that it proves ANY idiot can run for office and maybe, just maybe, they can win.
I am any idiot :-)

"I'm an activist who has to learn how to be a politician".  

Is what told my friend after a few discussions about my confrontational and opinionated online presence.

So running for office will definitely be an interesting adventure.

I feel like I have to at least try.

I have to try to walk the Camino and I have to run for elected office. I certainly may fail at both, but I am going to try anyway.

So, I am owning this Midlife Crisis because it's mine. I get to shape it. Crisis makes us reevaluate. Makes us see what is important. I refuse to go downhill, I haven't peeked, no sir, I am just beginning. 

Like my hero's Tolkien and Lewis who were both in their 50s when the published their greatest works, I plan to publish my book and walk the Camino and run for office 'cuz I'm owning my midlife crisis, it isn’t owning me!