What I know, Think, after being an Extra on the Movie Contraband

God is funny with me. With a lot of the big things in my life, He has never given them to me while they meant the world to me, only after I have let "it" go, forgot about it, has he allowed it to happen. The things I dreamed about as a child had to be completely let go of by me for them to happen.

I've been unemployed since October 1st. I've done a couple painting jobs, and the weekly house cleaning job that I've done for 12 years, but it's not enough to sustain our needed income. I need to make at least $600 a month and I haven't been. So, when Esther told me about being an extra, I applied for the income it could provide. If I had a day a week filming, I could make the money needed and also still be free to volunteer at the Dream Center. That would be a dream come true.

If I were Evangeline, being an extra on Twilight would have been the biggest deal, but for me, this was it. If you had asked me a year ago, two years ago, ten years ago, "if you could be in a movie with anyone, who would it be?" I would have said, "Mark Wahlberg, Leonardo DiCaprio, George Clooney or Keanu Reeves". In that order.

The fact that my first job as an extra was in a movie with Mark Wahlberg was just a freak gift really.

When I was young and my entire self worth was wrapped up in my ability to sing and act, being in this movie as an extra would have been too much for me to handle. It would have been too important. I would have tried to act all cool about it. But just like with singing on the worship team at the Dream Center, God only allowed it to happen long after it was let go of and laid down completely as a goal in life.

I'm not saying I don't want to do more extra work or wouldn't like to really act, I would but if I don't that's cool too.

I'm past the age of becoming famous, I'm too fat and too old for that. And when I say I'm more then ok with that knowledge, I am 100% sincere.

For some people, being an extra in a movie is nothing to blog or twitter about, even here in Louisiana, I know many people who do a lot of work on films. Our area has 15 productions filming here this year.

But lets be real, I blog about everything, I get this excited about everything. I'm kinda intense that way. So, what to some, really-to-cool-to-be-excited people seems like obnoxious and braggadocios post, is just me enjoying and sharing my excitement.

I'm not a hipster. Yes I wear the coolest shoes in the world and I paint my finger nails black, but I'm a 43 year old, wide-hipped Lord of the Rings geek mom who drives a gold minivan, I'm not too cool for anything.


Ms. Dumas said…
Anddddd I love you. The end. :)
Rosie said…
One of your gifts you give to the world is joie de vivre, Carole. I'm glad you aren't too cool for it; and I've loved following your movie journey vicariously with the tweets and post. What a fun, different thing to do- and for me- and my infinite curiosity- I get to learn about something I know nothing about which is really fun. I hope more phone calls to be an extra come your way- for you and for your readers!

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