I'm a mess..
I feel like all I do on here is throw pity parties, or make it sound like I'm always dealing with something.
Sometimes I want to pull back and not be so raw.. But then I just cant. This blog has to be true to who I am more then anything.
I am a mess.
Not like you all don't know how much Ethiopia and adoption has wrecked my heart, my mind, but to say it again, It has totally destroyed me.
Destroyed in a good way, in a surgical removal of self way.
But sometimes I just don't know what to do with myself. I have a hard time being present. Here and now.
I am joyful, at peace, happy. I laugh often, dance, sing and play.My heart is full of all that.
I hope. I dream. My faith is stronger now then ever. I know He's working so it's all very good BUT my heart is also shattered for everything normal.
The blessing of adoption is so life changing, so huge and heart stretching.
I hurt for a family right now that has decided to give up the 4yr old girl they adopted only 3 months ago from Ethiopia.
I hurt for the millions of children that will not eat today, will die today from treatable diseases, will be left in an orphanage by a single mom who can't support her child, or conceived the child from rape or incest.
I hurt because so many people would rather drink another Latte instead of helping a child not starve to death.
I could go on and on but I wont. I will rest.
Be present for Abel, Steele, Evangeline.
All I Need - Kim Walker
Where You Go I Go - Kim Walker
Sometimes I want to pull back and not be so raw.. But then I just cant. This blog has to be true to who I am more then anything.
I am a mess.
Not like you all don't know how much Ethiopia and adoption has wrecked my heart, my mind, but to say it again, It has totally destroyed me.
Destroyed in a good way, in a surgical removal of self way.
But sometimes I just don't know what to do with myself. I have a hard time being present. Here and now.
I am joyful, at peace, happy. I laugh often, dance, sing and play.My heart is full of all that.
I hope. I dream. My faith is stronger now then ever. I know He's working so it's all very good BUT my heart is also shattered for everything normal.
The blessing of adoption is so life changing, so huge and heart stretching.
I hurt for a family right now that has decided to give up the 4yr old girl they adopted only 3 months ago from Ethiopia.
I hurt for the millions of children that will not eat today, will die today from treatable diseases, will be left in an orphanage by a single mom who can't support her child, or conceived the child from rape or incest.
I hurt because so many people would rather drink another Latte instead of helping a child not starve to death.
I could go on and on but I wont. I will rest.
Be present for Abel, Steele, Evangeline.
All I Need - Kim Walker
Where You Go I Go - Kim Walker
Comments
Thanks for being real! I feel the same way sometimes that I am to real and need to pull back but can't. The world i not changed by those who pull back but by those that are real. You my friend are a real world changer.
Much love,
Shawn
Keep being transparent.
If you don't, it won't be your blog.