Rabbit chase..

Right continent, wrong country? Yes, that may be the case with our missions trip this summer to Africa.

I don't doubt we are supposed to go. I firmly believe that all my kids, once they are 12 or so like E is, should go on a missions trip every year. I know I am not called to raise America blinded children, taking them to impoverished countries to serve the people there and the missionaries there is a good way to prevent that.

SO, I want to go back to Ethiopia to work with Orphans, BUT it's looking more like God wants US to go to Mozambique Africa to do that and not Ethiopia. still nothing set in stone yet, I will update as soon as I know.

God really dealt with me yesterday.

Will I ever learn to listen to Him? Yea, I think I know when He is speaking but I just don't listen. "wait, what was that God, your breaking up.." when all the time what He was saying just didn't fit my plans.

And worship. I help lead worship at the Dream Center and I am so stinkin' inhibited when I worship. Again, it's the freedom issue. It's mine for the taking, all I have to do is walk in it but instead I walk in self consciousness. Last night at the HP Women, worship night, I just really felt like I was able to embrace that freedom more.

Dean always tells me that I care too much about what people think, it's true. I let people tailor my God given passion, I take to heart what I should let bounce off. Then other times I over react, jump the gun in my desire to always walk in His plan.

Waiting is...

Whom do I serve? Who do I put above all?

I have to always make sure I am dieing to self and living the life He has for me.

I talked to Dean for a bit last night about how I was feeling and what's going on in my head and my heart. He spoke my love language to me, "Words of Affirmation" and he held me. I have a great husband.

So, this was a crazy all over the place post..kinda like me I guess..be back soon, gotta go chase that other Rabbit.

Comments

big decisions girl. sounds like God is really showing you something. isnt it amazing how much HE cares for us?
Erin Moore said…
Maybe right country, wrong time?

I don't know, just throwing that out there. I don't even pretend to know what He wants you to do, I can barely tell what he wants ME to do! :-) Sometimes His voice is just so faint. I know for me, I need to just be still and listen...but that's just soooo hard for me.

I will keep you in prayer, how about E - is she feeling His leading in any one direction? I don't think He'd send you to two different places, so...



"Be still and know that I am God" Psalm 46:10
HerstoryGirl said…
There is a song by Sara Groves that I want you to listen to:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bd2nAWoS_j0
(if the link above doesn't work, just go to YouTube & search, "Hello, Lord" by Sara Groves

It's one of her lesser-known songs, but it's one of my favorites and one that I have had to pray over and over again.
This post made me think of it and I wanted to share it with you.
Praying for wisdom, clarity, and blessings for you, my sweet friend!

Here are the lyrics:

Hello Lord, it's me your child
I have a few things on my mind
Right now I'm faced with some big decisions
And I'm wondering if you have a minute, cuz
Right now I don't hear so well
And I was wondering if you could speak up?

I know that you tore the veil
So I could sit with you in person
And hear what you're saying but
Right now, I just can't hear you.

I don't doubt your sovereignty
I doubt my own ability to
Hear what you're saying
And to do the right thing
And I desperately want to do the right thing
But right now I don't hear so well
And I was wondering if you could speak up?

I know that you tore the veil
So I could sit with you in person
And hear what you're saying but
Right now, I just can't hear you.

And somewhere in the back of my mind
I think you are telling me to wait
And though patience has never been mine
Lord, I will wait to hear from you
Oh Lord, I'm waiting on you

Right now I don't hear so well
And I was wondering if you could speak up?

I know that you tore the veil
So I could sit with you in person
And hear what you're saying but
Right now, I think you're whispering...