Today is a new day
Dean pretty much stayed in bed from the time he got home from work last night till he had to get up at 4:00am this morning. He hugged me a lot and let me hug on him when I needed too but he was sad and tired so he mostly slept.
My kids were amazing. E took care of Steele most of the day and just let me cry and sleep as needed. She cried at Pathfinders, she said that helped her.
I received so many encouraging and uplifting E-mails, twitters and comments and ALL of them were so needed and appreciated.
Aimee Pouche, the leader of His Hearts for Orphans sent me an E-mail and said I need to thank God for the delay. Well that was just the dumbest thing I had ever heard. I was so sad and hurting that being thankful just seemed retarded to me and actually impossible. I tried to rationalize why it was so stupid to say "thank you Jesus for this delay" but I couldn't, "Carole if you believe God is in control of this and He has a reason for all these delays, then why not thank Him for what He is doing in this time?" I heard that in my heart, but it was still SO HARD. So finally, I did it, I thanked Him for the delay and then later when we prayed as a family before bed, I did it again and I really did feel God stand my heart up. "You have life to live, I will hold your heart up during this wait, you know I will, trust me, It will ALL be for the good". So that's where I am today. Knowing I can make it till A comes, get through Christmas, be present for my children that are here now and be full of joy even while I long for A to come home.
So many of you sent scripture that I am standing on, thank you. I really can't say enough how much we appreciate everyone's kind and encouraging words. You were all Jesus to us, his hands and feet and I am so grateful.
And last night Summer brought me the worlds largest Coffee Cup, some decaf Cinnamon coffee and some regular and also the cup was full of Chocolates! She knows my comfort language that's for sure.
Me enjoying some morning coffee :-)
1 Thessalonians 5:16-24 (New International Version)
16 Be joyful always; 17 pray continually; 18 give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
19 Do not put out the Spirit's fire; 20 do not treat prophecies with contempt. 21 Test everything. Hold on to the good. 22 Avoid every kind of evil.
23 May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. 24 The one who calls you is faithful and he will do it.