God Knows I Tried

I love how Lana writes songs that dig deep into my core sadness. Music is so magical that way, at least it is for me. I feel like my entire life is set to a soundtrack and there is a perfect song for every moment, event, season.

I'm in awe of how perfectly Lana incorporated not one but two Eagle's song titles in these lyrics. Even with a Hotel California shout out, this song could easily be sung as a modern lament in just about any contemporary church.(just as long as the congregants aren't familiar with her Pepsi song and the one called, "I F#*ked My Way to the Top")

I think as a mother, as a wife, as a citizen of the world and as a defector from church world, this song says it all.




Lana Del Rey - God Knows I Tried Lyrics

Artist: Lana Del Rey
Album: Honeymoon
Sometimes I wake up in the morning
To red, blue, and yellow skies
It's so crazy I could drink it like tequila sunrise
Put on that Hotel California
Dance around like I'm insane
I feel free when I see no one
And nobody knows my name

God knows I live
God knows I died
God knows I begged
Begged, borrowed and cried
God knows I loved
God know I lied
God knows I lost
God gave me life
And God knows I tried
God knows I tried
God knows I tried
God knows I tried

Sometimes I wake up in the morning
To red, blue and yellow lights
On Monday they destroyed me
But by Friday I'm revived
Put on that hotel California
Wear my blinders in the rain
I've got nothing much to live for
Ever since I found my fame

God knows I live
God knows I died

God knows I loved
God know I lied
God knows I lived
Begged, borrowed and cried
God knows I lost
God gave me life
God knows I tried
God knows I tried
God knows I tried
God knows I tried

So let there be light
Let there be light
Light up my life
Light up my life
Let there be light
Let there be light
Light up my life
Light up my life

God knows I tried
God knows I tried
God knows I tried
God knows I tried
God knows I tried
God knows I tried
God knows I tried
God knows I tried

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