2014: The Year of Living Ugly

Thinning, coarse hair
Elbows so dry and scaly they hurt
Dimply fat above the knees
Lose, flabby fat around my mid section
20 extra pounds over all
Double chin
Weak fingernails
Sore spot on my right foot
NO sex drive
Hot flashes
Eyes that constantly water
Dry scaly skin under the eyes

These are just some of the symptoms I have dealt with this last year, all as a result of age and jacked up hormones.

The "Yummy Tummy" under garment works wonders holding the fat in.
2014 started off with me on hormones to treat the hot flashes I was having due to Menopause.

By June I was 20 lbs heavier, hair feeling like straw, skin a wreck, but the hot flashes were gone. That was the only positive result of taking those hormones.

I started working out daily at the end of May but saw no results.

When I went to the doctor in August, my Estrogen was double what it should be, I had a vitamin D deficiency and Poly cystic Ovaries. I got off of the hormones, started taking Metformin, continued eating right, staying under 1200 calories a day and working out even more vigorously.

I weighed 165 then.

I weigh 165 now.

I have seen no weight loss.

I have lost an inch here and there, which is great, but still.

I started researching again as to why I have seen so little progress and I saw that a vitamin D deficiency can cause you not to lose weight.

Me, My brother Joe and Sister Donna at Christmas
I felt like an idiot and relieved at the same time. My doctor told me I had a vitamin D deficiency but I didn't get the prescription filled back in August like I should have. I didn't realize then that it contributed to my weight. Not sure how I missed that but I did. So, that explains things I hope.

Yesterday I picked up my vitamin D prescription and took it.

This morning I worked out as I have every other day since May 26th, ate my blueberry oatmeal from Starbucks and took my Metformin.

I put my "Clyde Farms" body cream on my elbows to help the dryness (Thanks Donna Clyde :-) put in my prescription eye-drops, rolled on some Mary Kay Timewise Targeted Action Eye Revitalizer cream under my eyes, put on my flats with my prescribed shoe inserts in them and threw on a scarf not a jacket because even though it's 40 degrees outside, the hot flashes are back since I'm no longer on the hormones, so I have to wear something I can remove and put back on easily, several times a day.

My hair is already looking better, John (my hairdresser) lightened it up in November and recently cut some layers in it to get rid of all the dead ends. Tonight I will buy some hair color from Walmart to touch up my grey.

Me, Dean, Abel, Steele and Evangeline at the LSU/Coke Tailgate in the Fall
I am not use to feeling unattractive. No I never thought I was beautiful but I also never felt ugly, but this last year I would look at pictures of myself and I just couldn't believe it was me. I didn't recognize that chubby lady with bad hair, skin and watery eyes with dry circles around them.

I know what you're thinking, I'm so shallow, I shouldn't care so much about what I look like, being over weight shouldn't bother me so much, I know, I hear you but I feel how I feel, go ahead and judge me, my gift to you this Christmas season, have a ball with it.

Physically, 2014 was a lot of work for very little results but 2015 will be better! I'm determined.

My beautiful kids and husband Christmas Eve


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