For me usually if I say "I can't find.." right after I say that, I find it. Or "how do you..." then I figure it out. So the same applies with this Funk Clouds. I typed the post and then really not long after I started feeling like it was dissipating. I am much better today.
I referenced "not doing the depression thing" and Karen asked about that. What I meant was I don't usually get depressed for long periods of time so I don't really understand how it feels or works. I didn't mean to sound flippant toward people who suffer from long bouts of depression.
Wanted to clear that up....I am flippant way too much though ;-)
I also mentioned how I pray. I say "help", and honestly, not much more then that can come out. It's like there is a dog pile of sadness, anger, grief, fear, temptation, whatever is going on at the time, and on the bottom is this sleeping Giant and all I have to say is "Help" and that Giant stands up and throws off all the dogs. And it's actually up to the Giant how many times he allows the dogs to pile up on him. They come back, start to almost cover him and I start to hear everything but His voice saying "all you have to do is say 'Help' and I will throw them off again". BUT thank God one word is all He needs me to say. I don't understand it but I know God is bigger then anything, any dog or dogs that pile up in my mind. I also know he doesn't need me to pray some big theatrical prayer for Him to answer, He loves me so He only needs me to call on Him and He helps.
So, I said "Help" a lot and each time I was able to talk more to Him and hear more from Him and eventually the Funk Cloud was all gone.
I'm Glad that the God of all things, even the Funk cloud, loves me and hears my cry. And I'm glad others prayed for me too. I am so grateful for the prayers.
It's a good day.