The indescribable strength of Peace
I lost an $800.00 check. Yea, it was for the adoption, part of our loan. I thought I had successfully put it in the night deposit but I didn't. It's a long story but in a nut shell I'm an idiot. So please, spare me any lectures.
Anyway, the Abba Fund is reissuing the check and stopping payment on the lost one. PLEASE pray that it is not cashed by anyone before they can get the stop payment. Thanks.
I have been painting, arranging storage, cleaning more, I am nesting big time. It's weird how women do that before a child comes. I think "hey! A is not going to care if the porch is painted or not!" but it still doesn't stop me doing it.
I received a video of him yesterday. He was wearing the hat we got him. He looks very small, like a 5 yr old rather then a 7 yr old. I wanted to hug him. In the video he looked so scared.
I know that feeling. I am scared. So much is about to change in our lives. He doesn't speak English, how crazy is that going to be? He is 7 not an infant, he will be so shocked by our world.
I pray A is covered by peace. I think we all know this is going to be hard, I can see it in his eyes.
But please don't for a second take me being scared as me not wanting to do it. Heck, I get white knuckle-make my peace with Jesus-scared every time I ride a roller coaster but I still love to ride them and want to ride them. The bottom line for me is, this is right. Everything about it is right. Even the second guessing and the nervousness about the future. It's all right. Dean, me, Evangeline and Steele, we all want this. We all love A already.
Peace is such an amazing thing. It's indescribable. It comes for the moments and takes you to the next ones. It clears the fog of fear. It keeps you focused when everything else tries to distract you