"..all we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us."

Time is short. At 39, more then ever before, I feel a keen sense of urgency.

I am reading Chazown for the book club, one thing it asks is "if money were no object, what would you do?" My first reaction is I would fund as many orphanages around the world that I could and as many adoptions as I could. I would also adopt as many orphans as I could.

Another thing this book said is "if your finances are holding you back from your 'Chazown' then you are in bondage." That stung. We are doing so much better with our money but we still have SO far to go. I really want to be completely debt free. I have friends that live on a quarter of their income and give the rest away. I want to do that.

My priorities are changing, slowly but completely. The more I ask my self, "what would Jesus do?" the answer is not what I thought it was for so many years. Matthew 25 is my chapter for this time in my life. I have to make a difference. I have to show Jesus, NOT IN WORDS but in deeds.

Have you ever felt like all of a sudden the flood lights came on? I feel like these last few years have just been a wake up call for me and my family. Evangeline is a miracle, her struggle with Diabetes and our living with it stretches us to see how fragile and short life is. Then getting Steele, the miracle that is adoption. Breaking down racial barriers, emotional barriers, dyeing to self, all that is bundled up in the adoption of Steele. Kids change you period, they bring to light the worst in us so we can lay it at the feet of Jesus and He can change us. With Kids you either die to yourself or you rurin your children and miss the life changing lessons God wants to teach us through them.

I am just amazed at this life. The opportunities, the way God NEVER gives up on us. He makes a way where there is no way, over and over again. I know Dean and I can beat this financial bondage, so that we can be a blessing to others. God said "with man this is impossible but not with God, all things are possible with Him. Matt 19:26".

My sister once said "you don't want to be an old lady and look back on your life and say I wish I had of..." That is so true. I want to hear "Well done thy good and faithful servant" when I see Jesus so everyday I will try to say "what would Jesus do? Thy will be done, help me lord."

I'm excited.


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